Five days in the desert.
Feels like an eternity.
Every minute, every second,
every hour, battling to hold onto
my slowly retreating sanity.
Prayer is for the weak. 
If  I survive, it's going be on 
the strength of my hatred,
for the bastard that I seek.

Beat me down, took my pride, 
took my woman,  spat in my eye.
Nothing but my name, I refuse to die.

Naked, hungry, thirsty, battered and bloody.
My shadow, the vultures and the elements,
the other members of my party.
I can still see his face, hear the derisive 
laughter, the scorn and arrogance
in his voice.
Cut him loose!
You can die now or later, your choice.
Take a break, my body screams in agony,
with every step I take.
Not a fucking chance!
Possessed, possessed, possessed. 
Want, need, gotta have this man.
He's my bitch, my Juliet, my tragic romance.

Stole my money, took my home.
Out in the wilderness all alone.
Not a soul to hear me cry.
Nothing but my name, I refuse to die.


Hallucinating or perhaps it was a dream.
The lines have blurred now so it's hard to tell.
I was in his house, fully armed.
That much I can remember well.
Wandering from room to room, taking out his
family.
A Mother, a son, two daughters, cats, some dogs.
Young, old, large, small, it's all the same to me.
Can't find him anywhere.
Wild with frustration, blinded by anger.
Beautiful woman.
Asleep when I found her.
Cried, screamed and begged for her life.
All in vain.
It's his face I see, as I viciuosly rape, beat and kill
the wife.
 

Wings brutally clipped, securely hog-tied.
Taken up and flung from the sky.
Nothing but my name, I refuse to die.

The City lights.
Beckoning.
Within reach, barely within sight.
Inviting.  
The arms of a wench on a cold rainy night.
I can taste it now, like a connoisseur.
Victory!
It's all that I've been living for.
Rising from the grave to wreak vengeance
on my enemy.
Redemption.
The perfect ending to a long, sad, bitter story.
A chance to right the ship and erase
the shame, the pain and the lies.
So close, so very, very close.
I've got to savor the moment,
for just a second, think I'll close my eyes...

Gotta keep going, as long as I can breathe,
Gonna try , I'm gonna try.
Nothing but my name, I refuse to...

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