It's like looking into a mirror
Watching yourself on black ice
Gracelessly fumbling around
Trying to keep yourself and your guide
From hitting the unforgiving ground

I've tried 
It's not easy
And in retrospect 
Unfair
It would…
If you were to grasp
The problem vast
Turn your world upside down
Forever
It could and will hurt you
My greatest fear
I don't want us to go there
The simple answers
I can't really use
And so in trying
You get all confused
It's logical and illogical

I should on one hand
Take a walk on the “normal” side
Live my life 
The way so many others do
Shut “them” out and lose myself in you
I would if I could
But there's something in me
That craves the extra-ordinary
I'm a dreamer babe
Constantly among clouds
The pen, my finest tool 
And I'm sure in somebody's book
I'm a classic fool
But there are some who can understand
The artist, the mission man
Where I'm coming from
A few who will 
In the words of an escapist like me
Recognize an all too tangible reality

On the other hand
I'm hardwired to pine for
Deep sky
To look up at black of night
With a sigh
And a tear in my eye
Hardwired to pursue
Questions
Most “men” don't even ponder
It's in my blood
Whispering, beckoning, enticing
An alien destiny
A natural affinity
For death and destruction
For necromancy
And each sunrise
Tugs me closer
To that invisible river
Nearer to my self true
And further away from
You…

I don't have to say
That I love you, the way I love life itself
And…
It'd be wrong not to let you know
 If tomorrow 
The cold heart summons me to go…
NO
Is not a valid option
For me
It'd be voluntary
And frighteningly easy
And so I find myself
Walking down a path
We've been over before
Putting one foot slowly in front of the other
And hoping that the road
Doesn't abruptly end around the corner

We live in a world of illusion
Where nothing is what it seems
The predators are few and mighty
The prey plenty and the clueless plentiful
What you don't know can hurt
What you know can kill
You
Ignorance feigned or otherwise can be
a useful skill and an outright thrill
Perhaps wanting you the way you are 
Is akin to having my cake and eating it too
A wish that may never come true
So babe lets suspend the discourse
The web behind the chair
Lets just leave it right there
For now…
I want you to dance
Inside the circle, the light
Away from the wolves
And the “eye” of my sword
Look if you must, but please don't touch
The pretty Ouija board

I'm happy in the moment
Grateful for the chance
However long it lasts
Believe me…
I am